Raising Girls

It's hard to know how to write this.  My sarcastic self wants to shine, but I want you to know I'm not throwing myself a pity party. I'm mearly stating the truth and the facts as I see them. It's more of a self examination (aka ramblings).  I believe in order to improve one should analyze what is going on, bad and good, to see if there is room for improvement.

My biggest struggle right now is being a mommy to two girls, one of which is just as head strong and stubborn as I was at her age.  (Sorry to my own Mommy.  Thanks for loving me!) 

I struggle with this because I don't feel I'm a good mommy for girls.  I know this because I wasn't very good at being a girl myself. Sure I had the moody diva figured out, but I never did have other girls figured out. (Still don't in many ways.)  I always got along better with the boys. They weren't caddy and when they didn't get a long, they didn't.

My problem with girls most likely started with my own attitude as a young girl. I know I was Miss Attitude.  I thought it was MY playground. I'm not sure why, other than I'm a big sister. But I'm sure that got me off on the wrong foot with most of the girls in my class.  I will take blame to contributing to my lower friends count growing up, but I can't figure out why I am the way I am.

I grew up in an amazing family. In fact you could say my family is screwed up in the sense that we get a long. We love each other and I consider my sisters and brother my best friends. My parents were my parents, not my friends, and I know their love and feel it strongly.  Maybe that's where things went wrong. (just kidding!)  Maybe my feelings for my family are so great that I didn't need outside friends?

Elementary and high school sucked. I hated it. I was tired of the back stabbing, gossipping, stupid games we all had to play when we were in HS.  I hated being made fun of, laughed at, and having dumb tricks played on me.  It all lead to a severe lack of humor in HS, and me feeling miserable most of the time.

I just don't want my little girls to have to go through that.  They don't need to be Miss Popularity, but I want them to have and keep genuine friends while they are growing up.  I'm afraid I don't know how to help them be that girl.  I'm afraid I don't know how to help tame Little Miss Attitude (because I can't tame my own sometimes!) so she doesn't start off on the wrong foot like I did.   

Overall though, I want my girls to grow up strong and confident, to know that they can do anything they put their mind to.  I want them to be happy with who they are and to love themselves.  I'm just not sure how to do that.